Former WWE Divas champion Celeste Bonin, known as “Kaitlyn” during her stint with the company, revealed her past battle with drug and alcohol addiction in an Instagram post on Tuesday.
Bonin posted a photo of herself from one year ago, which she originally posted shortly before checking herself in for a drug detox.
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It's been one year since I checked myself into the hospital for a medical drug detox. (I took this picture in the airport bathroom after flying into LAX.I felt so awful and disgusted with myself but I remember posting it on Instagram with some stupid caption about being happy. I was actually on the last days of the medicine to help me detox and was in a super fucked up place mentally and physically). Over the past few years I was in a terrible marriage, an addict and not true to myself. It took me so long to admit I had a problem… and then to admit how serious the problem was. I used to pretend to be and to live a certain way for social media. It's everyone's hi-light reel. I remember getting out of the hospital feeling like death, with a medical taper plan of meds and thinking "what have I done to myself?". I celebrated my 30th birthday 5 days later and I remember wanting to die. If you've ever gone through serious drug detox, you know that you basically go through two detoxes. One from the initial drug(s) and then another one from the medicine used to help you detox. A lot of people get hooked on the medicine and remain addicts. For me, I started abusing alcohol to deal with the chemical imbalances, panic attacks and sadness/depression I was experiencing. If you know me, you know I had never done a drug in my life leading up to this (besides smoking weed once or twice and freaking the fuck out.) It's so crazy. You can have the world at your fingertips but end up destroying yourself if you're not careful. I'm fortunate enough to have pulled myself out of it all and was able rebuild my life …but I can seriously empathize with anyone who is, has been, or has a tendency to be an addict (we're all addicted to something). But it's about self awareness and humility. Never be too proud to ask for help. Be able to wake up and look at yourself in the mirror. Tag someone who needs to read this. #addiction
“I remember getting out of the hospital feeling like death, with a medical taper plan of meds and thinking, ‘What have I done to myself?'” she wrote.
“I celebrated my 30th birthday 5 days later and I remember wanting to die.”
Bonin said she started abusing alcohol to “deal with the chemical imbalances, panic attacks and sadness/depression” she was experiencing.
“I’m fortunate enough to have pulled myself out of it all and was able rebuild my life …but I can seriously empathize with anyone who is, has been, or has a tendency to be an addict (we’re all addicted to something),” she added. “But it’s about self awareness and humility. Never be too proud to ask for help. Be able to wake up and look at yourself in the mirror.”
Bonin, who won season three of the NXT reality show in 2010, left WWE in 2014 after several years on the main roster. She has since continued a career in body fitness, which included launching the “Celestial Bodiez” fitness clothing shortly after departing from the company.
However, another recent Instagram post of Bonin participating in wrestling training has led to speculation that she was planning on making a return to WWE.
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Holy fuck. I haven't sweat this much in a long time. I spent the morning training at #maineventtrainingcenter with @pablomarquez94 and his crew. A huge thanks to everyone for putting up with my rusty ass. I haven't wrestled in 4 years. I forgot how fun/exhausting it is. #mainevent #prowrestling #imold #andoutofshape @coastalchampionshipwrestling
With a clean bill of health, hopefully Bonin will make a successful return to the ring sooner rather than later.